She asked me


My darling, special-needs-will-always-be-dependent-on-help, almost 17 year old (what??!!??) daughter asked me the BIG question in the middle of church this morning, “Will you and I ever be separated, Mom?” (Yeah, not that other question you were thinking of…)

Cue the tear ducts and tissue. Oh my gosh!!!! My greatest concern is what happens to her when I am gone.

Yes. Yes. We HAVE talked about this. Numerous times. But being Winnie the Pooh’s sister means she doesn’t retain what we discuss….

The answer was, “Yes. For a little while one of us will be in heaven waiting for the other to get there.”  Because what else can I say? I know her siblings will check in on her if they are in the area. But, as we all know, NOTHING takes the place of Mom.

Here’s the song that started it all, by one of my very most favorite singer/songwriters, Rich Mullins:

“Well, it took the hand of God Almighty
To part the waters of the sea
But it only took one little lie
To separate you and me
Oh, we are not as strong as we think we are

And they say that one day Joshua
Made the sun stand still in the sky
But I can’t even keep these thoughts
Of you from passing by
Oh, we are not as strong as we think we are

We are frail
We are fearfully and wonderfully made
Forged in the fires of human passion
Choking on the fumes of selfish rage
And with these our hells and our heavens
So few inches apart
We must be awfully small
And not as strong as we think we are

And the Master said their faith was
Gonna make them mountains move
But me, I tremble like a hill on a fault line
Just at the thought of how I lost you
Oh, we are not as strong as we think we are


And if you make me laugh well I know
I could make you like me
Cause when I laugh I can be a lot of fun
But we can’t do that I know that it is frightening
What I don’t know is why we can’t hold on
We can’t hold on

When you love you walk on the water
Just don’t stumble on the waves
We all want to go there somethin’ awful
But to stand there it takes some grace
‘Cause oh, we are not as strong
As we think we are”

So true, so true. We are not as strong as we think we are.

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